Maurer/Stier 2011 Annual Letter
smaurer1@swarthmore.edu http://www.swarthmore.edu/NatSci/smaurer1/
franstier@comcast.net http://burbaldiaries.blogspot.com/
leon.maurer@gmail.com https://mywebspace.wisc.edu/lnmaurer/web/
ajmaurer89@gmail.com (new
address)
206 Benjamin West Ave
Swarthmore PA 19081-1421
December 31, 2011
Steve writes: It's 10:30 New Year's Eve
and I'm finally starting to write this.
Though that sounds late, it's earlier than the last few years. It has to be, since I leave for 3 months
in Germany on January 4.
At
dinner tonight, Fran and I both noted that 2011 had been pretty good for
us. For Leon it has been
frustrating. If Aaron deigns to
send in a section from his perch in San Francisco, you will probably conclude that
it's been a good year for him.
I
finished being Math/Stat chair on June 20. As predicted a year ago, the spring
was even busier than the fall. I accomplished a lot as chair (strong program, good
hires) and was much appreciated, but by the end I was sick of it.
I
am on leave now for the full academic year. The leave started out with a very
successful MathPath 2011. I was then able to get MathPath 2012 planning off to a
good start instead of always rushing to catch up. We will be in the east for
the first time in 4 years, at Mount Holyoke.
The
two most interesting things this year so far are Fran and my August vacation in
the UK and my two-week trip in November to Kyrgyzstan.
Fran
has written at length about the UK on her blog. I will just add a few comments about my favorite spots.
The Lake District is excellent to hike in
because there is little forest, so you get great views even from low down
– so long as it isn't raining, which happened less than expected. See the
photo on the website for this letter, and photos for other things I mention.
The Cotswolds were gentler, but still
pretty with wide views. The extensive
land belonging to our B&B (the
Westward) includes a ruin of a roman villa which is
not on maps! The owner told us about it. It was so nifty to walk through the
woods and suddenly come upon it. I
was there by myself, as if I had discovered it. Sure, other roman villas are
better preserved, but being there had a magic feel. Mostly all you see is the
foundations of the walls. But in the one place where more is standing, a roof
has been put over a floor area covered with tarp. If you lift up the tarp, there is a large, pretty roman
mosaic.
We
spent the last few days in London mostly in museums. I highly recommend the London
Transportation Museum, which puts the NYC subway museum to shame (and we
won't even mention the small Philly museum).
Kyrgyzstan. I went there to help the
American University of Central Asia (AUCA) get a broader view of what math at a
liberal arts institution could mean. The Math Dept were extremely friendly and
generous hosts, but the institution was quite unlike others I know. Right now,
there is no math major, and the many mathematicians mostly teach service
courses at a low level for other departments. The Kyrgyz Ministry of Education
doesn't help, as it has long lists of required courses, including math courses,
for each major. Every AUCA student
has to take 6 courses a semester, so how can you expect the courses to have any
depth? At least AUCA has banished
the bribery endemic to academic institutions in many former Soviet
republics. I asked the AUCA
president (formerly graduate school dean at Northwestern) how salaries at AUCA
compared with other Kyrgyz universities. I have good news and bad news, he said. The good news: our salaries are double
the salaries at the national university. The bad news: when you count the
bribes that faculty there routinely receive (for passing students), our
compensation is only 2/3 of theirs. (I may misremember the exact ratios, but
the order is correct.)
AUCA
is housed in what had been the headquarters of the Kyrgyz Communist Party. It
was quite a trip to give one of my classes in a grand auditorium under the
watchful eyes of Marx, Lenin and Engels.
When you see the photo, it may occur to you that the portraits are
asymmetric. There should be a
fourth. I asked, and sure enough there had been a 4th. Who?
Kyrgyzstan
is a fascinating country of contrasts.
It's beautiful (except for the trash lying around). The capital Bishkek
is sort of like Denver in that nearby high mountains are the backdrop. But in
fact, the Tian Shan are higher and sharper than the Front Range of the Rockies
– they are the 2nd highest range in the world. The country is
quite a mixture of 1st and 3rd world. Everyone has a cell phone, and it's
cheap to phone the US with excellent reception. But my apartment complex, one
block from the beautiful modern White House (Parliament Building) was run down,
with a mud courtyard. When I asked for a laundromat for washing my clothes (Bishkek
has a million people), I was told they don't exist – I should wash my
clothes in my bathtub; indeed, there were already clotheslines above the tub,
and the detergent that had been left for me in the apartment gave instructions
for how to wash in a basin. I
later went to a grocery store and found boxes of Tide – same
instructions. But hey, it's one of the few places left in the world where the
exchange rate is favorable for dollars. Dinner for 2 in an upscale restaurant
was $15.
Growing old. Although it beats the
alternative, it's discouraging watching my powers decline. In the last year
I've come to see myself a new way, so perhaps it is time to talk about it.
I
make very strange typing mistakes. "we" comes out "me" (though w and m are not close on the
typewriter), "what" comes out "how", "have" becomes "am", syllables or whole
words are skipped, and so on.
These errors are not new; me for we was a typo published on line 10 of
the Preface of the 1991 first edition of my discrete math text, to my
embarrassment. But these errors have gotten more and more frequent. At least I know to look for them now
and find most after a few reads.
Remembering
people's names is getting worse. This is the first memory to go, but it's
gotten to the point where if I don't use a name in a month or two, I won't be
able to call it up. I can usually
call up the rhythm and number of syllables, but not the name. Fortunately, I
can still call up most vocabulary words in real time.
Even
remembering street configurations is getting tricky. Fran used to be amazed that I could remember the lay of
intersections I had been through once in my life 25 years ago. That's changed. Even
for local routes I can't always instantaneously decide anymore the best way to
get from A to B, if I haven't done it for a month.
I
am not very good at puzzles, as I have come to learn at MathPath watching the
kids and some of the grownups. My
colleague Al likes to give some letter sequence and asks for an English word
containing that sequence. Some
kids can do it very fast but I can't do it at all. (Example: name a word ending
in eny.) Spatial visualization is increasingly hard for me too. I can visualize linear stuff easily still,
even in multiple dimensions (teaching linear algebra helps) but not curvy stuff
beyond 2 dimensions that topologists and knot theorists would do. (Fortunately, only part of math needs
this geometric insight; much can be done algebraically)
My
physical abilities have been going down too. I'll give one or two examples.
For
some years I have had trouble understanding people when there is a noisy
background (e.g., in restaurants or at parties) and it has gotten worse. The ability to understand what people
say in movies has also gone down, even when I back up the DVD and play the
phrase again. My ability to understand someone speaking German is far worse.
They understand me fine, but sometimes I can't understand them at all. I used to attribute this to just
needing more practice, but it didn't get much better when I was in Germany 4
years ago. Of course, foreign languages are always harder, but now I think my difficulty is related to
my trouble understanding English.
Even at the quiet dinner table, Fran has to repeat things for me
sometimes.
I
have had my hearing checked. There
was a little loss 4 years ago, mostly in one ear at midrange frequencies. A
year ago the loss was more. The audiologist thought it was borderline whether a
hearing aid would make a difference, but I do intend to try one. It seems more like a processing problem
to me. Since it seems I can't
anticipate what people might be saying (just like I can't just naturally think
about puzzles the right way), I have trouble figuring out what people mean just
from the sounds.
I
read once about a strange brain disorder where one day you wake up and you can
no longer comprehend spoken language.
I sometimes imagine that happening to me. I guess so long as I could still comprehend the written word
I could manage. (The reverse happened to my mother when she was coming out of
an epileptic seizure from the brain tumor that eventually killed her. She would
talk, but it was all garbled sounds.
Later she would say she understood us and thought she was making perfect
sense in reply.)
The
shaking on the left side of my body is getting worse. I first noticed this a few years ago, when I could not always
hold a camera steady with my left hand.
But now I can't hold anything steady with my left hand. If I hold a saucer and spoon, they
clatter. I have of course reported
this to my doctor. He said it was
not uncommon with aging. When I
pointed out the asymmetry he got more interested and ordered a brain MRI. The report: only normal aging. I shake some on the right side, but far
less. Good thing. If I had that much shaking on the right
I wouldn't be able to write on the board or sign my name, and then I would be
sunk. As it is, my handwriting has gotten hard for even me to read.
Years
ago, when we took both our sons (at different times) to a specialist for
students who had trouble writing (both physically and writer's block) he asked
me: Do you notice how they grit their teeth when they write. This is a sign of motor difficulty.
I
grit my teeth when I write.
Switching
gears slightly, do you know the scene towards the end of Forrest Gump where
Gump/Hanks is cheerfully riding a lawn mower? He has returned to his home town
and has been given a job mowing the lawn for the town hall. He voices over with something like "they
let me mow the lawn all I want and even offered to pay me." He was happy as a
little clam. I sometimes think: If
I could just ride trains and mail packages all day, I too would be happy as a
little clam. I have a mild
fixation on trains and the post office.
I study train routes and schedules wherever I go, I study postal rates
and zip codes, and I love tracking packages. A few years ago, I wrote about how much I enjoyed The Curious Incident of the Dog in the
Nighttime. If I didn't write about it in our annual, you can see my essay
about it on my Swarthmore web page.
Anyway, I really liked the main character Christopher, who had Asperger's
and studied train schedules.
I
said I have come to see my growing old a new way. Well, I've come to see myself as a cripple. A high functioning cripple to be sure
– I know how to compensate.
But a cripple nonetheless. I'm not depressed about it, just
discouraged. It's even sort of
interesting to observe myself. So I am just reporting, not asking for sympathy
or help or even expecting to convince you. I can live with growing old, at
least until it gets a whole lot worse. I guess that depends on how long I live.
I turned 65 in August, and am a card-carrying member of Medicare A.
Anyway,
for the time being things are good. My barber gives me a senior discount.
Though I can't balance on one leg, I can still drive without accident all day
on the left on those narrow British secondary roads. Finally, MathPath causes me to mail lots of packages, and
Germany will let me ride lots of trains.
Finally,
Fran and I have been getting along well. We enjoy each other's company and
negotiations between us are mostly successful and short. Maybe it's really true
that you get more alike if you grow old together. At least, we agree to disagree
without even discussing it much. Our 30th anniversary is next
October.
To
readers who are old people (what Leon calls Fran and me – he also thinks
we have become wusses about arguing with each other), I hope you are managing
as least as well as we. To
everyone, I wish you a Happy New Year.
Fran's
part: Hoping this finds you
well. It's New Year's Eve –
Leon, Steve & I sat around eating rack of lamb & drinking wine &
talking about the past year.
Leon: Leon continues studying physics
at UW Madison. He got a garden plot
from the university, and also came home in July while Steve was away at
MathPath & took care of Steve's
garden:
He harvested
turnips from the garden & left them spread out on the kitchen table,
greens, garden dirt & all. I
said, (after asking him to trim them & clean off the dirt) I hope you get a
girlfriend who civilizes you & he said, maybe he'll get a girlfriend who
LIKES dirty turnips on the kitchen table.
Just like S, who, whenever I object to something he does, announces his
next wife won't object.
Garden updates featured heavily in weekly phone calls.
L and S are
having a heart to heart talk about the home backup system and how it handles
S's VPN, bicycle pumps (one of ours has a seal that seems to have dried out),
zucchinis (L's didn't have squash borers after all), chard, beans, L had 19
cukes to pickle, and will soon have another bunch, and a ton of butternut
squash coming. He has some okra
coming – S warning him against letting the pods toughen. S giving an entomological update on his
garden, and earnestly questioning L on what bugs he's seen in his Wisc
garden.
He continued studying condensed matter, fabricating tiny devices,
The wafer-stepper
has been giving him trouble all week again. First he followed David's suggestions, which didn't
work. Then he followed the tech
support company's suggs, which also didn't work (ancient as the wafer stepper
is, there's tech support because there's a whole industry to support these huge
old things). ÉL's getting fed up
with the stepper not working – he said he'd rather flip burgers –
at least they smell good & and can be made successfully.
Aaron: Aaron
didn't get into math grad schools, but found a job in San Francisco at Acumen, doing
statistical analysis on Medicare claim data.
At spring break, he and many friends galavanted through the Mississippi
valley to New Orleans.
I of course keep
trying to elicit signs of life, so texted him "u alive" w/o a question
mark. He replied he was alive but might
die of shame if I didn't learn to punctuate my texts, so I did find the
question mark for the next "u ok".
He didn't come home for Seder – he had comprehensive projects to
finish in math and history and wanted to savor his last months in Northfield.
I emailed:
I feel so bad thinking of you alone & not at
a seder on Mon night.
He replied: Mom, just because I won't be at
a Seder does not mean I will be alone. If it will make you feel any better,
Monday is wine night at one of the local bars, and I swear I will drink at
least 4 cups of wine.
We all trooped out
for his graduation, of course (details on my blog).
After graduation, he
cleared out his house, spent 6 weeks helping take care of a friend's horse
farm. He headed to SF in August,
staying with friends in Missoula MT
– was very impressed with the SD Badlands and battlefield at Little Big
Horn —Seattle (good Chinese food & wind-surfing) and Portland.
He stayed with a
Carleton friend's family in SF for some weeks, before finding a (very
affordable) house to share with two teachers. He still goes to the friend's house for Sunday dinner every
week.
His office is full of
20-somethings (mostly Stanford grads); they come to work in shorts, bringing
their dogs, and go out drinking together over the weekend. His nook in the business world is a lot
like college.
He runs SAS and STATA
on huge datasets (the whole database is measured in petabytes – the biggest data unit I knew of previously was a
terabyte) to answer questions like whether high-dose flu vaccine for Medicare
beneficiaries is cost-effective.
He's proud to have his own health insurance & 401(k). Our last fledgeling has fledged.
Steve finished
his second 3 year term as chair, planted his garden (late, this year) and set
off for MathPath, which went well, except for falling off his bike (picture on my blog; his
helmet saved hiim) and then returned to a year of leave.
S arrived home
Tues night. He spent time
decompressing and pottering around and comparison shopping for a USB cable
(he'd packed his printer cable in boxes that wouldn't be delivered till
tomorrow, but didn't want to spend too much money, so checked out Walmart &
Target & Best Buy and heaven knows where else) and stretchy green socks
that were easy to put on (30 years of marriage almost & I never noticed he
liked his socks to match his pants).
Being on leave has meant he can read the paper at length every morning
and take naps in the afternoon when he's been up late working the night before.
We vacationed in the UK:
Lake District, the Cotswolds, and London (Steve did almost all the
driving and 99.9% of the navigating, more details on blog)
Fran's
work: It's been a long
year. You may remember ALICO was
purchased by Met Life in Nov of 2010.
We found out in March whether our jobs would continue – the
actuaries mostly got to stay but the accounting jobs are being moved to Tampa,
where MetLife has a big office. By
now, several floors of our building stand empty.
At the start of 2011, I was working temporarily in the Japan financial
reporting section, helping set up purchase GAAP. Afterwards, I was to go back
to Experience Studies. However, an
AVP (Assistant Vice President) in the Japan financial reporting section left in
February– a job a notch above what I was doing in experience
studies—and I started filling in for him in March. The paperwork for my transfer to Japan
financial reporting went through in September, and a promotion goes through as
of the start of 2012.
The "operating model" (what gets done where and who reports to whom) for
"legacy ALICO" actuarial work is in flux.
In spring, calculating reserves was going to move from Wilmington to
overseas, but modeling work would stay in Wilmington, so there was a stampede
among the actuarial students to find jobs in modeling, and a colleague in
financial reporting left (I filled in for him, too). In summer, the decision to send reserve calculation to the
field was reversed, and (thank heavens), the colleague returned. Now, MetLife's new CEO is reorganizing
the whole company along regional lines; no one knows how that will play out.
MetLife is a Systemically Important Financial Institution (SIFI) and,
starting this year, had to submit projections to the Federal Reserve showing
what its balance sheet would look like under stress conditions. Our group had to put together
projections for Japan (since it's a large chunk of ALICO), and I designed
worksheets that would pull together the reports that come out of our projection
system. Fed stress tests ate
up a lot of evenings and weekends.
Very
tiring week grinding out projections for the Fed – 4 scenarios with two
different starting dates, each of which (for my little group) is made up of 14
pieces. Since Japan is 12 hours
ahead of us, much ado about keeping them supplied with the raw materials to
make final income statements of.
Tues night, phone call w/ Japan, they wanted total income statements of
my stuff, so, like a fool, I said brightly, I'll go back into the office and do
them, it's no trouble. What with
road construction, it took maybe 40 min to get to the office, and 40 min to get
home, and an hour or so there. I
got home around midnight.
Then,
the next day, I went in maybe 9 AM and stayed till 8 PM or so. By Friday, I was really, really tired,
and Japan had a bunch of questions about cash flows. X had said, we're still going to do ½ days before a
holiday (ALICO custom, not in conformity w/ MetLife). I decided to just answer Japan's questions & not make my
2 remaining munchkins labor on grinding out the final 2 scenarios, which my
boss was ok with but Y the MetLife accountant, wasn't. Y scheduled a 9 PM phone call to "touch
base", and Japan had another set of questions that arrived this morning
(meaning they worked their Sunday), so I had to come up with some reasonable
response.
There's
one product with a name that means "Yen outside, dollar inside", that has a
particularly complicated set of currency conversions. I was standing at the ladies' room sink with my eyes closed
trying to think about what was making a funny bump in an income statement, and
AC came up in some concern and asked, was I ok. Trying to think about it makes me feel dizzy.
Some things are definitely going better –a very able guy came over
to work for me from experience studies. The department has contract accountants
who help us with our vouchers, and have automated (and taken responsibility for)
some of the most onerous manual reconciliations. They created nifty Cognos reports that let us "drill down"
to the voucher entries that comprise our P&L statements.
In spite of the turmoil and lost weekends, I like financial reporting
– it's a challenge to review the numbers my group's submitting and
hopefully spot the errors before they happen, and then spot irregularities in
the profit-and-loss (P&L) statement and come up with an explanation, or a
fix if there's been a mistake.
Coop,
Social Action: Chester's Coop opened
in a permanent location, 6 days a week, in March (Leon updated the
website). I continue as treasurer
(it's a lot more work, with the store open full time), with the help of a
bookkeeper. We found a local
accounting firm willing to prepare our Federal & State income tax
forms. Our membership has grown,
but not yet to a sustainable basis.
I continue on Social Action at Ohev
Shalom: reading with kids at
nearby shelters, taking dinners to a nearby soup kitchen, food drives, Martin
Luther King Day. So many families
have made a tradition of volunteering – events come together easily.
Genealogy: My family tree is still up on
Ancestry.com, leading to some interesting encounters. In May, I got a message over
Ancestry from alumnae relations at Hockaday, the
school my grandmother attended in Dallas.
Nanny was its first graduate, in 1913, and did I have a picture? She had looked Nanny's family up in the
Dallas Morning News Historical archive, and sent several pieces like the
following.
May
27, 1909: Dallas Morning News: Mr. and Mrs. Rudolph Liebman were
at home yesterday, both evening and afternoon, so that their friends might
greet their daughter, Alma, on her confirmation. The class flowers, daisies, sweet peas and ferns were used
to make the rooms pretty, where Mesdames Morris Liebman, Hablo, Sterrs, L
Lorch, Hagenback, A Harris, Misses Marguerite Repp, Hortense and Marguerite
Dreyfus, Julia Repp, Marcell Harris, Marguerite Kahn, Mildred and Ruth Liebman
assisted in receiving. In the evening,
also, a number of guests called to offer gifts and best wishes.
In October, a 2nd cousin once removed (her grandfather was the
brother of my mother's father's mother) got in touch through Ancestry; she knew
several Greenman cousins; they and my Mom got together for lunch (I had to cancel at the last
minute; Fed stress testsÉ.).
Steve's brothers are much more diligent genealogists than I – I'm
not making much progress tracing family back into Europe, but I can't bring
myself to take down the tree, either.
I never knew my father's mother—she died at age 45, before I was
born (I'm named for her)—but her naturalization papers and her name on
the 1930 census give me some sense of connection.
End of
Fran's part: Leon
heads back to WI on Tuesday, Steve leaves for 3 months in Germany on Wednesday,
I set out for 2 weeks in Japan for work on Saturday. I haven't traveled overseas for work since 2008 (when I used
to go to Brazil); I'm excited.
Wishing you peace, health and wide horizons in the New Year.
Leon writes: In many ways, 2011 was the
least eventful year I can remember – even less eventful than last year.
I'm now a fourth year graduate student in physics, and I spent a lot of time
doing research – research which didn't work. However, there are changes
coming up, and hopefully last year was instructive.
In the first half of the year, I worked on the project I
described last year and the year before that. As of last year, it had failed
about a dozen times, and I was certain the problem was the devices we were
measuring (from a research group we collaborated with) – not with the
measurement equipment. The professor from the collaborating group wasn't
convinced. It turns out I was right.
I should have handled things differently. I hate the Ôo'
word, but the devices were obviously at fault. I tried several times to
demonstrate this, but when the professor remained unconvinced, I deferred to
his judgment rather than pushing my case. I should have been tipped off because
he kept asking the same questions meeting after meeting, and kept accepting the
same answers. He wasn't convinced because he didn't fully remember what was
going on.
The weight of evidence finally sunk in around August, and
he decided to redesign his devices. We soon parted ways. I'm not sure what
happened behind the scenes; I like to think my adviser suggested I be taken off
the project. The other group took up measurement of their devices (which made
more sense) using the apparatus I built, and that was that. The project was
supposed to be quick, but I spent ~1.75 years on it and it's still not done.
I started on another project in June. I'm not working on
it anymore, so I'll just say it was a device that allowed several photons
(quanta of light) to do a random walk. In principle, it could be used for
numerous experiments. It was based on designs we had already tested, so my
adviser thought it would be quick to get working. I was excited since it would
be my first complete experiment; I'd do all three parts of the research cycle:
design/simulation, fabrication, and measurement.
We should have seen a problem coming. Although this design
was similar to our previous ones, it was more than twice as complicated, and
the simpler devices already had a low yield.
This had little effect on design/simulation where
complexity was as simple as copying and pasting or adding a few lines of code.
This step – especially simulation – was a lot of fun. At the end, I
had laid out the device with a computer and predicted the experiments' results
with my simulation.
Next came fabrication, which was a mess. It took 11 steps.
If one went wrong, that usually meant starting over. I started and restarted
for most of September, October, and November. Most of the fabrication was done
in the cleanroom, not a place I wanted to be; as I told my Mom, I'd rather be
flipping burgers. Fabrication centered around a nearly 20 year old,
hand-me-down photolithography system from Intel. It had been flaky for years,
but it mostly worked when only one or two people were using it. However, I
tried to use it along with four or five other people. The machine couldn't
handle it. It'd work poorly or break down and not work at all. Finally, towards
the end of November, I made some devices that weren't pretty but looked like
they might work.
After all that, I was tired, but I wanted to try
measurement in case it – along with design/simulation – could
counterbalance fabrication. I'd done dinky measurements mixed in with
fabrication, but this would be the real deal: a tall rack of microwave generators,
sequences, mixers, filters, and the likes all connected to a dilution
refrigerator (cooling my device nearly to absolute zero), all at my command,
and all to measure my device.
However, I had to wait while higher priority devices were
measured, so I only started measuring on 12/21. By this point, the person
familiar with the equipment had left (thankfully, he had a cell phone), so I
struggled for days to do the measurements. I eventually succeeded. My devices
were barely working. Even adjusting for the circumstances, I decided
measurement wasn't enjoyable enough to offset fabrication. In short, this
research cycle wasn't for me (especially since it wasn't working).
During September, I started searching for a backup plan.
Since I enjoyed writing simulations and was sick of fabrication, I looked for simulation
oriented research. That meant giving up experiment completely and moving to
theory. I had taken (and done well in) two simulation heavy classes on
semiconductors from a professor in electrical engineering, so I talked with
her, and she offered me a spot in her group. I think it's a good match; she's
affiliated with the physics department so she can be my adviser without
bureaucratic hurdles, her research is mostly simulations of tiny semiconductor devices
(concrete applications), and the two classes gave me some foundation for the
research.
Still, I was hesitant to switch for three main reasons:
the things I learned from research wouldn't be applicable, I still liked my
current research in principle, and my current research meant spending time in
the machine shop and designing electronics – which I greatly enjoy. While
considering my options, my research kept not working, and I finally tried
measurement and found I didn't like it enough. I decided the first reason was a
sunk cost (plus, the knowledge might be useful later), the second didn't hold
up in practice, and the third might be me confusing what I wanted to do for
work and what I wanted to do for play. Also, another opportunity to play in a
machine shop and with electronics opened up; more on that later.
I finally decided to make the switch at 11pm on 12/22
– when I was leaving the lab. I discussed the possibility with my adviser
in October, so it wasn't without warning. Many of the lessons are clear and
unsurprising: research doesn't always work, professors aren't always right,
etc. One thing is less clear: did I stick with this research too long? Was I
too patient? Demotivational posters have long been an internet staple, and my
favorite was always a picture of a tennis player on his knees on a
court, racket discarded at his side, hands on his head. The title is
"Stupidity", and the caption reads "Quitters never win, and winners never quit,
but those who never win and never quit are idiots." Being too patient certainly
backfired recently with my idiot roommate recently, but I won't elaborate on
that. I consider myself a pretty patient person, but maybe I should experiment
with being less so. In any case, it was strange to throw in the towel. It's the
first time I quit a job, and I think it's the first significant project I've
abandoned as an adult.
I did little besides research last year partly because I
was already late in doing my preliminary examination, a milestone on the way to
a PhD that needs preliminary results. So I doubled down on research. Needless
to say, I still haven't done my prelim (I'm the only person in my class who
hasn't), but I've been granted extensions.
For fun, I've been up to my usual activities (cycling,
cooking, etc.) and two new ones. The first is vegetable gardening, which was a
great success. Like Swarthmore College, UW-Madison has plots available, and I
worked mine from mid March through mid December (when – due to unusually
warm weather – I picked my last parsnips). I planted many crops that were
old favorites from my Dad's garden (tomatoes, zucchini, etc.), but some of my
favorites ended up being new ones (butternut squash, parsnips, etc.) I'm
looking forward to experimenting more next year.
The second is that I've joined a local hackerspace, a shop
with machining, electronics, and computer facilities available to members for
use in their projects. I've long had access to similar facilities in the
physics department, but this hackerspace has some tools I didn't have access
to (3D printers, computer
controlled mills, etc.) and a population of other people with similar
interests. I won't write about my projects because they're incomplete;
hopefully I'll have something to share next year.
If you want to follow me during the year (or learn more
about last year), see my google plus page. Many of
my posts aren't public – you must join to see them – but some are
(including a few on fabrication, gardening, and cooking).
Enjoy the new year.